Learning Irresponsibility vicariously Through my Superiors

yes, I mean it.
I am slowly learning how to ignore the responsibilities of others though they directly influence my life at work. It sucks but I have to learn to let go.

I think this is the same with God, except that we only see His guiding as irresponsible while it actually is working out better for us.

In my work the actions of others have lead us into a precarious situation. I feel that I have done all I can. So, I have let the stress rise to my superiors to deal with the situation, not knowing what that means for the company. In some ways I feel like a failure, that I let my company down; but I have to realize and acknowledge that I have done all that I can to better the situation with the tools and training they have given me.

God does not work this way. God wants to rescue us from our situations because He loves us. These situations are not God made they are man made. God through his love has granted us the power of messing up our lives but has graciously given us His Son to take all the responsibility. This concept is so hard to live out that many in the modern Church have ditched it as impossible and have raised their banners to the tune of society, normality, worldliness so much so that they now look nothing less and nothing more than a carbon copy of the world, only with something to do on Sundays.

We have sinned. We have screwed up our lives.

BUT

God who has given us the freedom to destroy has redeemed our lives and taken upon himself the responsibility of our sins because He loves us.

That's a professor giving himself up for a plagiarizing student.
That's like a cop going to jail for a drug addict.
That's like your parents admitting to stealing the toy and putting it in your pocket.

The difference is that Jesus gave His life. He died an earthly death of agony so that we did not have to part from Him, ever.

Why can't we see the importance of that? We spend so much time loving ourselves and making the most of this life. Why? Cause this life is all there is. So why can't we see this. Well, Jesus is God, right? So, when He 'died' He didn't 'die' He just lost His body.

Not true.

He gave His earthly life for us, yes, but we must realize what that is, what it means. He died in agony on this earth, descending into Hell for us. What is Hell? Well you can define it many ways, but Hell is being parted from true reality. It is the life that many lead. Many of us experience Hell on a daily basis. Many of us create Hell on earth on a daily basis. What can be worse than being separated from God? From being separated from your real purpose? From true and lasting REAL life!

What could be worse, well anything you think of, that is Hell.

Jesus separated Himself from God to descend into Hell (now this is not just a state of mind, the Bible clearly states that there is an afterlife and you are either in eternal denial of God and thus in agony, or you are worshiping God for eternity). I can't go into all of it now, but know this: Jesus died so that your life could not be wasted. Don't waste it worrying about things out of your control. He is not an incompetant boss, He is the creator of the world, we are the creators of misery, agony and hell on earth.

Today I feel like a new person. A new Christian. I feel like the world around is a magical unknown place I have yet to experience.

I have been struggling under this cloud of suffering ever since I decided to go to Seminary (which I am no longer doing).

Yet, in the past three days God has erupted his love into my life, and I'm not fighting it anymore.

But right now, Today, I just experienced an amazing truth. I was watching the Nooma video Breathe. And in it Rob Bell mentions that the word for spirit and breath are the same. The same word. Did God not breath in us through Adam? He sent down his spirit on Pentecost? Could it not be that God sent down his breath, and since we cannot live without breath we live only because God breathed his spirit into us? Some Raabi's (see video) have said that the name of God is unpronouncable because it is the sound of breathing. Do we praise God by saying his name with the breath He gave us?

Our God dwells in us, His Holy Spirit, His Holy Breath. Lord breath in me!